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When Your Perfect Life Doesn't Feel Perfect
A free 14-day private podcast with daily 2–5 minute experiments to close the gap between how your life looks and how it feels.
For successful women who've tried every strategy, system, and morning routine but still feel like they're performing their own lives
You're really good at managing yourself like a project
Your calendar is organized. Your responsibilities handled. Your morning routine optimized. You've read the books, tried the breathing apps, and practiced gratitude until you could teach a masterclass.You're consistent. You follow through. You keep downloading the next app that promises to finally help you feel better.From the outside, you have it all together.But inside? There's this quiet exhaustion that sleep doesn't fix. This restlessness that no amount of productivity can quiet. This sense that you're moving through your days instead of actually living them.You keep adding strategies to feel better. The answer isn't adding more. The answer is removing what's keeping you from yourself.
Why nothing you try actually sticks
You download the meditation app. You feel better for a week. Then the old restlessness creeps back in.You start the gratitude practice. You write in the journal every morning. You mean it when you write it. But by afternoon you're back to feeling disconnected.
You try the breathing exercises. The habit tracker. The morning routine that worked for your friend. Each one helps for a while. Then stops working.
You think you're the problem. That you lack discipline or follow-through.
You're not the problem. You're trying to manage your way to a feeling that can't be managed.
The cost of performing your own life
You say "I'm fine" when your chest feels tight.You push through when everything in you wants to rest.
You smile and nod when you want to scream.
You've gotten so good at overriding what you feel that you've forgotten what you actually feel.
The exhaustion that follows you everywhere isn't from doing too much. It's from abandoning yourself so consistently that you don't even notice you're doing it.
You've become a stranger in your own life. And somewhere underneath all that competence, you know it.
I used to send birthday cards out of obligation
For years, I've been the one who remembered everyone's birthdays. Kids, in-laws, cousins, aunts, uncles. I've had a monthly calendar hanging on my bathroom wall for years, so I see it every morning. Cards go out on time, every time.It started as something I enjoyed. Then it became a chore. A duty I resented but couldn't quit.So I did what I always did. I powered through, overriding the resentment that bubbled up while I addressed envelopes.Then I decided to try experimenting with my experience. I didn't want to stop sending cards, so I explored gratitude that I had the money to do it. I reminded myself how organized I am. I recalled touching moments with each person as I wrote in their card.Each experiment led me closer to something I wasn't expecting. Not the forced "fun" feeling I was trying to recreate. Something deeper. A feeling of awe and joy that's hard to describe.I didn't change what I was doing. I changed how I was with what I was doing.That's when I understood. The problem was never the chore of sending birthday cards. The problem was allowing it to become a chore instead of experimenting with ways to enjoy it.
This works because it's the opposite of everything you've tried
You've been adding practices to feel better. This removes what's blocking you from feeling.You've been managing your emotions. This teaches you to trust them.You've been trying to fix yourself. This helps you remember you were never broken.
Two Weeks to Remember
What you get:
14 daily audio episodes (2-5 minutes each)Delivered privately to your inboxSimple experiments, no pressurePermission to stop fixing yourselfWhat it costs: Nothing. This is free.What it requires: Your willingness to listen.
One more thing
Your circumstances don't need to change. Your relationship to them does.Your body already knows how to guide you home. These two weeks simply help you remember how to listen.Ready to read more about this approach? Explore The Reclamation, the essay that started it all.
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